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Oct. 25th, 2013 11:44 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
floatingleafAhhh, Gods... life is a whirlwind of crazy at the moment. Work is getting hectic, and it shouldn't be, not at this time of year - I wasn't expecting that, and I do not approve. *scowls* We have a fucking PHONE CALL PROJECT (my favorite thing, right next to pushing a boulder up a steep hill, or poking myself in the eye with scissors, or... well, you get the picture). I may not actually feel suicidal because of it... but I am certainly pissed off. I almost wish the boss hadn't returned to the office after her surgery; it was so blissfully quiet while she was gone...
That's the bad crazy. The good crazy is my new enthusiastic VC friend, who is almost single-handedly trying to revive the semi-catatonic fandom, and doing a pretty good job of it, too.;) Keeping up with that girl apparently requires a bit more stamina than I've got at the moment.:P Email, DreamWidth, Tumblr, phone... we're all over the place, and it's intoxicating, but my brainwheels are on overdrive, and I need to figure out how to wind down a little. Incidentally, I've had a vicious bout of insomnia this week, which may or may not have been related to the above. I know it sounds extreme - but, unfortunately, my body IS prone to extreme psychosomatic reactions. In other words, I often get insomnia/anxiety when I am upset about something; but I also get it when I'm happy. Any sort of intense emotion easily throws me off balance. Apparently, I should have a really boring life if I want to feel healthy.;P For example, I figured out long ago that being in love makes me physically ill. It can still be worth it, up to a point - but there usually comes a moment when it's simply too much to handle. So perhaps it isn't such a long stretch to conclude that sudden and intense friendships can have a similar effect...
But anyway... I eventually did recover, and get a decent amount of sleep. So there is hope.:) I also did see the final movie of the festival - Floating Skyscrapers. A gay love story, made in Poland. Unsurprisingly, it did not have a happy ending. It seems that happy endings for gay couples are still not a thing that's "done" in Polish mainstream culture. Well, at least said culture no longer pretends gays don't exist - and that's definitely an improvement. But the film was quite depressing, on the whole, and being in a "zombie mode" when I watched it (on about 12 total hours of sleep in three nights) didn't help. I managed not to burst out crying towards the end - but it was close...
Oh, and another thing before I sign off: I've been itching for some new music, and I've found a perfect cure for that particular affliction.:) Abney Park. As recommended by![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
meathiel. I just finished downloading over 40 tracks from Soundike.com. They are AWESOME. I have a feeling I'll be playing them to death over the next few weeks...:D
Here's a lovely fanvid to illustrate my point:
So thanks again, Kerstin. And feel free to throw more recs at me, whenever. Your taste in music is exquisite...;)
That's the bad crazy. The good crazy is my new enthusiastic VC friend, who is almost single-handedly trying to revive the semi-catatonic fandom, and doing a pretty good job of it, too.;) Keeping up with that girl apparently requires a bit more stamina than I've got at the moment.:P Email, DreamWidth, Tumblr, phone... we're all over the place, and it's intoxicating, but my brainwheels are on overdrive, and I need to figure out how to wind down a little. Incidentally, I've had a vicious bout of insomnia this week, which may or may not have been related to the above. I know it sounds extreme - but, unfortunately, my body IS prone to extreme psychosomatic reactions. In other words, I often get insomnia/anxiety when I am upset about something; but I also get it when I'm happy. Any sort of intense emotion easily throws me off balance. Apparently, I should have a really boring life if I want to feel healthy.;P For example, I figured out long ago that being in love makes me physically ill. It can still be worth it, up to a point - but there usually comes a moment when it's simply too much to handle. So perhaps it isn't such a long stretch to conclude that sudden and intense friendships can have a similar effect...
But anyway... I eventually did recover, and get a decent amount of sleep. So there is hope.:) I also did see the final movie of the festival - Floating Skyscrapers. A gay love story, made in Poland. Unsurprisingly, it did not have a happy ending. It seems that happy endings for gay couples are still not a thing that's "done" in Polish mainstream culture. Well, at least said culture no longer pretends gays don't exist - and that's definitely an improvement. But the film was quite depressing, on the whole, and being in a "zombie mode" when I watched it (on about 12 total hours of sleep in three nights) didn't help. I managed not to burst out crying towards the end - but it was close...
Oh, and another thing before I sign off: I've been itching for some new music, and I've found a perfect cure for that particular affliction.:) Abney Park. As recommended by
meathiel. I just finished downloading over 40 tracks from Soundike.com. They are AWESOME. I have a feeling I'll be playing them to death over the next few weeks...:D Here's a lovely fanvid to illustrate my point:
So thanks again, Kerstin. And feel free to throw more recs at me, whenever. Your taste in music is exquisite...;)
